I stop on a hill in the outskirts of a city. Neither the city, nor its hill, are featured in Autumn by the Wayside. I rest in a patch of grass and shake one of Alice’s picks into my hand, turning it over several times and then bringing it to my mouth quickly, as an impulse.

Bitter, and understandably so.

The pick’s sisters jostle in their vial, warped from their soaking in ‘The Watery Grave’ and restless, I think, or blown by an otherworldly wind. The sun sets and the bitterness passes, giving way to the flavor of wood and a feeling of calm.

This has been a long trip- longer than I meant it to be. It has taken up time that may have been lent to better causes. I haven’t bettered the world. I have traded old burdens for new ones. I am physically less than I once was. I am, at times, mentally desolate. I often act only for the sake of acting.

Alice’s pick softens in the darkness. It wanders between the corners of my mouth, testing the air. It waits and it slowly dissolves and when I take a long, reflective breath, it leaps into the back of my throat and churns out a choking darkness that rises, in time, to blot the light from my eyes.

I see a woman in the darkness, Alice, and she holds hostage my air until I agree to a list of strangled promises- petty things that would only matter to the dead. I cough and expel a cloud of blood and splinters.

Within a week I find a bored mechanic to fasten one of the five remaining picks to the speedometer, the needle of which hasn’t moved in a year.

It moves now.

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‘Let us reflect, for a moment, on the stubborn existence of the electronic shooting gallery. Let us, in fact, describe in plain terms what an electronic shooting gallery is.

In dormancy, an electronic shooting gallery is a man-sized diorama- a cartoon still-life of the American west riddled with bullseyes and sectioned off from the world by a row of battered guns (firing harmless lasers, no matter the make or model). Fed money, the gallery lights up and the guns activate- unlimited ammo for a limited time (the American bullet buffet). Fired upon, the gallery wakes and responds to the shots with any number of charming reactions: a farmer shouts, a bird squawks in fright, a can launches itself off a fence (and then returns to the fence unharmed, ready for the sharp shooter’s second go-round).

That’s the key to it, reader.

The essence of the electronic shooting gallery is contained in the returning of the can. It is an embodiment of the arcade machine’s manic naivety, an insistence that most actions are blissfully free of consequence. We know, of course, that the opposite is true; that every action is the harbinger of unspeakable consequence. We know this, even if it seems we don’t.

This instinctual knowledge is why the subversion at ‘The Nice House’ provokes such visceral reaction in those that play its game.’

‘The Nice House’ is situated like a lost window at the end of a short corridor to the bathrooms of a no-name convenience store. The window looks into a very normal living room where the mock-up of a nuclear family pays careful attention to a blank television screen. It’s strikingly different than your run-of-the-mill western gallery, with the exception of the guns which are, in turn, strikingly out of place.

I hesitate with a quarter in my palm. It’s been my experience that engaging a thing that is otherwise inactive opens one up to blame for what occurs in its waking and I have a hunch that this is a thing made to sow regret. I know, too, that I will play the game eventually and the arrival of several other interested parties pushes me over the edge. The coin drops and the TV clicks on to a news segment regarding a string of murders. Dozens of red targets shine to life in the living room.

With expectant eyes on my back, I pick up a gun and begin the awful charade.

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It’s rare that I choose not to pull off the highway for some oddity that might exist there. Much of the time it’s mundane- the artwork of an off-season farmer or the shrine of some unnamed enthusiast. More than once I’ve found an entry for Shitholes that may have otherwise gone overlooked, that had gone suspiciously overlooked, in fact (my certainty that the book is changing grows with the thing itself, now a paperback tome that drags on my shoulders). The pleasure of making these impromptu stops has ceded to necessity over this long trip. Pleasure is ceding generally, I’m afraid, like the brisk nights of late summer give way early to the fall.

Considering this compulsion, it’s strange that I exit outer Greenville (a detour for gas) and spot a statue across the median- the statue of a man looking off in the direction of the sunset (or, because it’s morning, where the sunset will be). Stranger still that the man is borne out of dirt, with little suggestion of a foundation to hold him in place.

I run across the highway, though there is not a car in sight.

‘There has always been a statue outside of Greenville, Ohio, the unassuming shape of a man with his back to the road and his-’

The statue shifts and I jump back, dropping the already-battered copy of Autumn by the Wayside in the gravel. Its pages curl in guilty smiles.

The statue is not a statue at all, but a painted man. A cardboard plaque at his feet fills in the rest, or, if not the rest, then some:

“ACTOR DONATED BY THE GREENVILLE LIVING STATUES TO REMEMBER THAT WHICH INSPIRED SO MANY OF US.”

The statue, the man, breathes heavily and leans away when I stoop to pick up the fallen book. People can be cruel, I suppose. He’s right to be on the defensive.

‘There has always been a statue outside of Greenville, Ohio, the unassuming shape of a man with his back to the road and his eyes set on the horizon.

Or, that’s what is said by the few people who claim to remember.

In a span of time that has been narrowed to the last 50 years, the original statue was stolen and a local group of ‘living statues’ has stepped in to faithfully fill the absence. So swift were they in taking to this monumental task nobody is sure when the statue was replaced or how long the ‘Greenville Living Statues’ have paid their strange, silent tribute.

Strange because the ‘Greenville Living Statues’ don’t seem to exist outside of this task. Strange because only one actor seems to have been photographed all these long years. Strange, too, because nobody has witnessed a changing of the guard despite the occasional webcam project or marathon stakeout. The statue is flesh, this has been proven many times and many ways, but the humanity of it has been called into question numerous times.

The children of Greenville tell the story of a statue that was granted life it did not want (or could not comprehend). Their explanation is as good as any that has been put forth previous to this author’s visit.’

It hurts me to watch the ‘statue;’ it seems to strain under the pressure of my gaze. It struggles to remain still, holding its breath for long moments and quietly heaving the next. Its eyes creep toward mine and quickly turn back to the field before us.

It’s a strange world and people keep strange hobbies. I’ve learned not to judge, but there is a certain pity I feel for those, like myself, who find themselves so consumed.

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Something in the bike starts to grind just 20 miles out of Missouri. It’s nothing ugly at the outset, but I check Shitholes for the nearest likely pull-off and find a scene of autumn that has persisted well into the summer months.

A grove of dead trees stands at the border, tormented (and made greener) by thick ropes of manicured ivy. Clouds hesitate in the sky above, churning out a pink-tinged storm that looks like the underside of a sea creature. Two women toil in the grove with a hickey bar and a long piece of rusted metal. Together, they prop up the branch of something that could be an oak.

‘Maria Vasquez, owner of ‘Cold Grove,’ carefully avoids questions about her mid-west installation. Her acreage is thick with extinct trees- dead, of course, or they wouldn’t be extinct- held up and together with conspicuous pieces of metal and constant, obsessive maintenance by those in her employ. The sources of the unprocessed specimens is a mystery- the trees themselves are unlabeled and have only undergone amateur identification. The gates of ‘Cold Grove’ are opened inconsistently and trespassers face prosecution with an infamous zeal. It’s not friendly enough to be an educational center and it lacks the careful whimsy of art.

Former ‘Grove’ employee, Richard Denner, has famously (where fame is relative) accused Vasquez of occult motivations. ‘Cold Grove,’ he claims, has been erected to attract the ghosts of things long dead. Like columbine, which can be propagated as an invitation to humming birds, ‘Cold Grove’ requires no explanation because it is the means to an end and not the end itself. All said, there is evidence that Denner’s departure from the ‘Grove’ was an unpleasant one and he has since proved himself to be a man of little relevance.’

Finding the gates to ‘Cold Grove’ are open, I shake the bike a few times and leave with the vague idea that it might sort itself out over the duration of a walk. Inside, I see the women across the ‘Grove’ notice me and I pretend not to see them, taking on the guise of a non-intrusive passerby.

Despite care and rounded metals, the trees chafe at their structures, splintering and peeling where the wind has encouraged post-life movement. Something, rain probably (or wooden ennui) has led much of the grove to weep, creating dark, dripping stains where they bend in their death-permanent poses. A majority of their number stand like modern palm trees, great, barren stalks, and each is as cold and as hard as stone.

The trunk of one tree rattles as I pass; its structure buzzes under my fingertips. The head of a boring insect emerges for a split second, just at eye level, before retreating into the dark of the wood. The skin of the tree shifts, then, as a thousand tunnels fill with a thousand heads like the last. They wait and seem to watch me, clicking under insectile breaths.

“Grove’s closed!” one of the women shouts, and I skitter backward for fear of getting caught in a swarm.

But they have gone and the tree is silent.

Twenty miles out of ‘Cold Grove’ the bike makes a sound like an old woman’s cough and the grinding clears.

-traveler

A day passes in which I am pursued by a parade through a small, uninteresting town. The treads of the bike gum up with candy and I weave through crowds of adult men on small tricycles. Each empty road leads me back to the long line of people marching through the streets. They wave from the sidewalks and I wave back, my face a rictus under the helmet, a taut smile that says ‘I’m not supposed to be here but I’m doing the best I can.’

-traveler

At the suggestion of Shitholes, I spend the morning on a park bench near ‘The Gravity Well.’ A family arrives shortly after I do, the first of many. The kids toss things into the ‘Well,’ scouring the forest for rocks and debris. They take turns throwing their finds over the mouth and laughing as it all inexplicably b-lines into the dark. The parents, two men, pretend to be less impressed than they are. They quietly marvel at the silence of the ‘Well,’ how the rocks rarely even clatter against the side on the way down. The children are given coins to buy wishes. An older boy is scolded for throwing an empty bottle in.

“That’s polluting,” one of the men says, “That won’t break down till you’re an old man.”

The boy says the same about the coins and the family leaves before the argument concludes.

‘The Gravity Well’ does not change in the interim.

A woman arrives later, on her own. She’s looking cautiously over the edge when a ball of bones and feathers screeches past her head and into the ground.

“Did you see that?” she asks me.

“Pretty grim,” I tell her.

She takes a picture of the ‘Well’ with her phone and looks disappointed at the result. She leaves, like the others.

How high up, I wonder, was that bird? It must have felt safe until it began to fall. Does a bird know enough to blame itself for an accident like that?

A man arrives and does nothing to hide his amazement. He does the opposite, even.

“This is crazy, right?” he asks me, “Like, why aren’t we doing something about this? Why aren’t there papers written about this? Why hasn’t someone figured out a way to harness this energy?”

I shrug and put on a face of polite bafflement.

“The world is fucking crazy,” he continues, “This thing is fucking crazy,” he adds.

Another man arrives in the meantime, backing his truck up in the lot. The man that steps from the cab could be a farmer or a meth cook, a toss-up as far as I’m concerned. He pulls down the tailgate and slings a heavy sack onto his shoulder, an assortment of garbage by the look and smell.

The situation dons on the first man as the second approaches.

“You can’t do that!” he says, his disbelief shifting tone, “This isn’t a fucking dump!”

“Is if I dump things here.”

“I’ll call the police! I’ve got your license plate number.”

“Call’em.”

“This is ridiculous.”

The second man tips the bag into the ‘Well’ without another word and the first scowls.

“That was ridiculous,” he says, as the truck pulls away. He shakes his head and I nod.

Several minutes later the man is holding his arm out over the mouth of ‘The Gravity Well,’ leaning over the short protective barrier installed there. His fingers creep across its radius until his hand and arm suddenly drop and he stumbles backward, smacking his thin wrist on the stone edge in the process. He looks at his swollen hand and he looks at me with the face of a man that is deeply disturbed by what he felt, by a close brush with the inevitable.

He leaves without another word.

I leave a short time later, frightened by the man’s fear and unwilling to perform tests of my own.

‘‘The Gravity Well’ is another of the Earth’s overlooked miracles, too strange to truly comprehend. With no sign or description available (and only the barest information to be found online) most visitors are left to assume that science can explain the existence of ‘The Gravity Well,’ (it has yet to do so). Local legend says the ‘Well’ will occasionally reverse and spill forth the secret disposals of the previous generation, though this occurs on the scale of centuries and long after the pertinence of anything contained therein has expired.’

-traveler

‘Richard Langley of Canton, Mississippi claims to be the nation’s oldest living man, though no authority has yet graced him with the title. By his account, and by the account of a tattered document, ‘Dick’ is 154 years old and an 89-year citizen of the United States. The document is nigh unreadable but the man looks the part- looks older even. Dick Langley aches with age and the world aches around him, his floorboards creaking- the spines of his books (and his back) twisted with the long burden of life. His is not the story of a man that lives well into his hundreds, but of a man that lives unwell, that lives nonetheless.

Due to Dick’s inability (and now, unwillingness) to verify his age with any legal institution, the man’s claims only serve as an introduction to his small, roadside collection of teeth. The collection is a mere 85 pieces but each (excepting one) has been genetically verified to be a Dick Langley original- the initial 20 baby teeth, the full set of adults, and then a third set of haunting bones that grew into Dick’s mouth beginning in his 126^th year. ‘Dick’s Senior Teeth’ are milky and vaguely translucent, their tips ragged like an old dish towel. One is streaked red throughout, some stray nerve or blood vessel that remains sealed up in the dense enamel. Another is curved like an elephant tusk and hollowed by a deep cavity.

There are pictures of the teeth coming in, all the blood and pain of a child’s teething in the mouth of an old man. Copies of Dick’s dentist reports are spiral-bound and available as a perk of the ‘show.’ They detail astonishment, mostly (“Where are they coming from?”) and concerns for the man’s health (“…suggests removing them may be as dangerous as leaving them in.”). They come to few conclusions before Dick runs out of money and spends the following decade with his new set. As we know by now, these too will eventually loosen at their anchors.

The one tooth in the collection that doesn’t belong to Dick arrived in his mailbox in 2007, as twisted and malformed as his own. The sender, a woman in the Ukraine, claims to be 134 and has gone through the same oral molting.

‘Dick’s Senior Teeth’ is an uncomfortable attraction. The facilities are unkempt and Dick himself is hardly a draw, so near death he seems to be. Despite its welcome mat, an entrance into ‘Dick’s Senior Teeth’ feels like an intrusion and the sight of the teeth will leave even the hardiest traveler’s jaw itching for some time after.’

A plague of detours means I arrive at Dick’s too late, the man having passed away in the night.

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Preoccupied, I pass the same sign several times before I realize it is the same sign and not just iterations of the curt message it bears:

‘WEIGH STATION – ALL VEHICLES MUST TURN OFF’

The same pull-away ramp follows just a quarter-mile down the road, skirting a little hut and looping neatly back around to the highway. I pass it again and see the sign soon after, it having only just disappeared from the rattled mirrors of my bike.

With a dramatic (and singularly personal) show of reluctance, I gather the scattered pieces of paperwork that have proven necessary on the trip thus far: several licenses (current, expired), registrations for the bike in two states (solid, gray), a handful of drawn charms for safe passage, luck, wealth, a ward against nightmares (cold iron, I’m told, just a rusted rod of it) and proof of insurance. I loose two rings from my key chain, one for the right hand (the tell symbol for a secret society) and another for the left, under a glove (the tell symbol for a splinter of the same society).

I remind myself of my aliases, of their ages, occupations, and previous addresses. I remember the reasons, true and false, that my own appearance has so changed from even the most recent pictures of me (missing teeth, close-cut hair, patchy beard). I clear my throat and practice greeting someone in a way that communicates, through tone, a tired willingness to cooperate with authority. It comes easy.

Finally, I rev the engine and pull forward, past the sign and up the infinite ramp to a platform set into the road. Red numbers flick across a digital display on the small, fogged hut and something shifts inside, taking a step back from the window as though uncomfortable with my mild attention.

For many months the scale has settled on a negative, registering my missing shadow (and eventually the lighter, false shadow) as an absence. The negative has been the cause of a good deal of bureaucratic grief on my part, a good deal of grief all around. There is an expectation here, as well as just about anywhere in the nation, that a payment is involved and that the payments flow in a particular direction. For the weigh station to suddenly owe money (at least, according to their systems) is unwelcome. I’ve probably earned thirty dollars this way, thirty dollars in crumpled bills and loose change (as though from the pockets of the collectors themselves). I’ve lost a lot of time.

When it settles, the scale registers in the positive and a second screen tallies the Gray Toll- $2.75. I put the money in the bin and the blurry collector waves me through. The ramp and the sign stay behind me this time. The air grows cool and dry.

An early autumn.

‘Given the inconsistency of toll prices, the author has taken it upon himself to compile a short list of variables that appear to, in some way, affect the scales. At the time of writing, the author’s average toll in a small car is $4.10.

+ Hauling 5-20 lbs of salt (steady increase)

+ Accompanied by two passengers

+ Dried leaves blowing across platform (dramatic increase)

+ Raining

+ Driver waves at hut (in a friendly manner)

– A/C or heater is running

– Dog is in car

– Driver slept particularly well the previous night’

 

-traveler

‘‘The Nighttime Insect Experience’ is nothing but a rundown motel and it does the bare minimum to convince any would-be visitors otherwise. Advertising exclusively in phonebooks and the thin magnets that clutter the refrigerator doors of elderly relatives, ‘The Nighttime Insect Experience’ is every inch the grainy off-white it appears to be in pictures, flaking like a dry scalp, hunched like a sick dog. The old motel sits on the earth like a happenstance pile of autumn leaves- one careless (and inevitable) kick from crumpled extinction.

‘The Experience’ comes as a sickly surprise to most who, in the Irony Age, assume authenticity and detriment necessarily equate to redemption via gritty eccentricity. In many cases (most cases, even) the decomposition of an enterprise is irredeemably ugly and devoid of meaning. The motel’s name and its suggested purpose is not an attempt to be clever in the traditional sense, but a last-ditch effort to lure in a few more dollars before the looming demise, a plot as ill-conceived as it is ill-meaning.

Like most bad motels, a night in the parking lot would be infinitely more comfortable, save for muggings and foul weather. The place is a minefield of brittle life, the carpets sandy with broken exoskeletons and peppery droppings. There is an implication of mold on every surface and a suspicious movement in every corner that suggests a thousand things hide lazily, as though inconvenienced but ultimately unthreatened by guests.

‘The Nighttime Insect Experience,’ its owners, employees, and unironic guests, are an ugly symptom of a rich nation’s dormant poverty. Like a bedsore, it exists not to pass judgement but to serve as a vulgar warning that something is wrong on a larger scale. Like many bedsores, it goes unnoticed by those that might serve as caretakers.’

– excerpt, Autumn by the Wayside

There are places and times where the sun never sets.

No, that’s not true.

There are places and times where the sun sets and lurks below the horizon, creating a perpetual half-day. One such half-day begins as I reach the end of ‘The Long Dark,’ exiting near Burrow and pressing the bike further, to the first no-name town and, past that, to the first side-of-the-road clearing underneath the sky.

It’s 2:00am and the sky is a back-lit gray. It’s cold and the air is still. I wrap my sleeping bag around my shoulders, lean back against the bike, and watch something that looks like a fox skirt the field. I fall asleep despite my better judgement.

The angry muttering of the Stranger’s truck wakes me. My cellphone reports the passing of several hours, though nothing else about the morning has changed. I rise on cold legs, legs that are stiff with disuse, and the crumpled-spider shadow shifts like dry leaves underfoot.

I watch the Stranger’s truck pass the clearing, rumbling like a small landslide, and I hear the engine’s hesitation just seconds down the road- a slowing to idle, an idling that becomes a pointed reversal. I have done nothing to hide myself, I’ve done the opposite, even, so now that the Stranger knows to look, he sees me right away. He parks carelessly and leaves the truck’s door gaping. It breathes stale air and smoke into the morning.

This is not the Stranger, but a shadow of the man the Stranger was- pale, hunched, and impossibly fat. The thing that slides itself from the frame of the truck is a dire amalgamation of the man I knew and the thing he has been running from. It is, like me, a being with no shadow, and it lurches in my direction on bow-legs and stuttered breaths. It can hardly follow me at a walking pace to the edge of the clearing, but it tries. There, we begin to circle.

In my traveling I’ve been subjected to a good deal of information on circles. Spiritualists and scientists alike see the universe in cycles. Circles act as wards against and prisons for demons and the otherwise demonic. A circle is just as likely to represent wholeness as it is to represent nothing. The Path is a circle, I think, or many nested circles. All this aside, I learned what I believe of circles in the only semester of college I ever attended, when an idiot I called a friend drank too much and we walked him in circles to keep him awake, or when the same idiot suffered a concussion for diving into a shallow pool, or when he experienced panic at the thought of growing older.

I walk the shadow of the Stranger in circles as the sun rises again to brighten the unending day, hours and hours of treading the border of this little space so that I know every bent blade of grass and every divot and pebble. I walk until my legs become indignant- they swell and ache. I walk until my toes blister in my boots. I walk until the false shadow finally tears from my socks and blows away like a dark, ethereal tumbleweed. I walk until the sun sinks again and the thing from the truck gasps and wheezes and follows, its own feet bleeding freely into the dirt until the clearing is darkly bordered.

I don’t know what to expect, but eventually, when the day becomes delirious, I look back to find that the only thing pursuing me is my own shadow, thicker, perhaps, than I remember.

I sleep fitfully in the cab of the Stranger’s truck and, finding it haunted, ride the bike back through ‘The Long Dark’ and toward the end of my journey.

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